Browsing Tag: Clandest Singh

Hearing these words of the Chaupai Sahib during the morning prayer program on the radio, which had accidentally been set to an alarm, I jolted back to consciousness and dropped my knife and collapsed onto the floor, crying.

Surely he would help me. Surely he would explain to my parents that I was still very much human, and very much normal. Surely he would be the voice of reason…

I convinced myself that I was indeed an abomination and I began a destructive path of self-hate... I would beg God to take it away, to make me straight. I would give anything, anything for it to go away, anything for me to just be normal, anything to stop being who I was ashamed of being…