Lost faith and anger - 2

[Dr.Kaur]

For some reason the previous discussion is locked so I thought that I should start a new post to keep you updated.
There is nothing new with my career going on but we will be starting adoption procedure next month. It would take 1 year for the whole procedure and then there is 2-3 yrs wait list. No one has been supportive till now, not a single person except my husband. I have been told to abandon my beloved dog because one of my family member who is considered to be very high spiritually (believe me she has millions of followers) says that dogs take away my parenting genes (duh!) I donot believe in blind faith an would never ever abandon the only happiness that we have at present but now I have been pressurized by my mother to leave my dog in order to have a kid. I think there is no morality left in humans, we take in and throw out as and when we desire. Thankfully my MIL and father support my having my pet for ever.
I have taken up gardening and have adopted a guinea pig to keep myself busy and distracted and it is working very well, I love taking care of those who are dependent on me. I think these things satisfy my parenting needs. My guinea pig and many plants might not be there to see my adoptive kid as they have short life span upto 4yrs only but my dog would welcome our new family member with an open heart.
As per treatment options, the medication that the specialist put me on was giving me very very bad mood swings, I have having suicidal thoughts, so I left the treatment. So adoption is our best option. If anyone knows of any good books on adopting kids upto 2-3yrs of age and how to avoid attachment issues, please let me know.
Thanks

[Bundha]

Benji,

I am so happy that things are starting to go well for you. Keep a positive state of mind. Your gardening is good for you and it gets you out of the house into the fresh air, and looking after pets is very theraputic and good for the mind. Love your pets. It is no coincidence that you have these pets by the way, so love them and care for them. I hope your adoption goes well and do not be put off by distractors, keep your goal in mind and go for it single mindedly.

What I would suggest is do not abandon your Guru. When you are in the garden tending to the plants and pets just repeat mool mantra or gurmantra quietly.

[Dr.Kaur]

another big slap on our face. My husband is having very serious troubles at his work now, if things do not change, he will loose his job :( now i am very very upset, if he looses his job, we will loose everything we have. Why is this happening to me? what have we done so wrong to be punished at every step? no gurbani is working. what is the use of this life. If God is so hard to please then why is he giving life to people and giving them so much pain? life is unbearable

[swarn bains]

gurbani was not written to solve your day to day problems. it was written to pacify the mind; especially in adversity. if u beg something from guru or gurbani it is not going to happen. so control yourself and work hard to asoslve your problems and avoid the lay offs

[VeeruS]

First of all, when we claim to have faith, technically we are claiming that we are ready to accept whatever The Doer does. It's not that we are ready to accept what whatever we want and we lose faith if things don't go the way we want.

There is a reason for everything.

There might be a good reason for the child you are going to adopt. For your test, you keep trying. Just trying to figure out the weak area that you need help.

I am sure your husband job is alright. But things happen. This isn't the end of the world. There are many people who lose their jobs. I lost mine a few years ago and I was the only one working. It actually worked in our favor as after that my wife started working too.

Remember we immigrants start from scratch.