by suji singh » Mon Mar 16, 2015 7:53 pm
Knight, Sir, you are raising too many issues about your spouse's past. You seemingly arrived at a tipping point in your relationship. Here are a few comments that may be of some help.
I am not blaming my wife for the past, only thinking about decisions and actions that can affect marriage.
The path of inquisition that you have chosen may lead to one of you declared a loser. Marriage works best in a Win-Win situation. Avoid this path.
Another valid point in discussing past relationships comes down to what your partners have experienced sexually. For example, if a woman has "done certain things" in previous relationships but she does not do these with her husband, that is a form of cheating.
Past is past, live in the present. You needed to do this inquiry, if you must, seventeen years ago. Not now, with two children. Whatever expectations you have about your conjugal life, discuss it openly in present tense. You have to understand important facts about human sexuality, it decays differently with different people. Many women lose desire for sexuality after menopause or as they age. No, it is not form of cheating if she does not or cannot conform to your standard.
I do feel honesty and openess are a strength. Agreed that some women are put off by this but not all men are sexist in their attitude to a woman's past. Female equality and feminism have come a long way and being honest about the past would surely a sign of how far equality has come.
Define "honesty" and "openness" first, and then apply these definitions to yourself before demanding the same from your wife. If you are honest and rigorous about this, you will abandon this line of inquiry. Work on saving your marriage!