Bundha wrote:Hi, I will say it like I see it.
Seems a very bizarre situation, it is almost as if your parents do not want you around. You have been raised in Canada so why does your father send you to India to do a course? What was wrong with Canada? When you do not do so well, which seems perfectly understandable considering what you have to cope with, then he sets up an interview, without you knowing, and sends you off to the USA, you’d think he didn’t want you around. So now you are not doing so well what next? What is wrong with Canada? What is wrong with a course closer to home? Why is your father making all the decisions for you? Why is he choosing your courses and setting up all the interviews and you just going along with it? What happened to what you want to do? No wonder you are not doing well, not only are you having to do a course that maybe you do not want to do but you are also having to cope with being so far away from home and having to deal with a different culture!
There seems to be a communications problem within your family and a lack of care and love. But more importantly the question is - What do you want?
You need to first sit down and think what you want to do. Then sit down with your parents and explain to them that you need some input into what happens in your life. Tell them what you want to do, tell them you want to stay closer to home. Tell them there is no love in the family. Tell them they need to talk.
What good is making something of yourself if in the process you lose your family and your sanity.
Yes you are right , actually there are no vet schools where I live and there are only 2 in canada I can apply to but hard to get into so thats why he sent me to India , then America. He has always made my decisions, I don't know how to say if I want to do something else because now at this point I feel I should finish this degree some how. It's not that I am not home I am sad , it is more we have no life in our family. everything is very dull. My brother doesnt talk to my dad much , he comes upstairs once awhile and that to my mom has to tell him to come say hi to my dad. My parents dont say much to him now but get mad when he spends a lot of money and doesnt even talk to them properly. stuff like this makes me really depressed as to why our family is like this. My dad comes home at 9 pm and he doesnt talk about much except how is school , are u preparing for next semester, like we have to be so careful how we behave , if we play to much with the dogs infront of him then we get in trouble because thats all we do , if we watch tv infront of them then , they will say thats all u guys do , if I say I want to volunteer with something , then I have to hear why dont u help in the clinic and business , why dont u post stuff online about the clinic, and all this. so I just keep quite and dont do as much. My mom tries to keep intouch with us and be more free with us , but most of the time she is at the clinic, so my breaks are very dull when I come home , then I go back to america for the semester and I am always sad I dont know why , I am just always depressed , I can't get myself to studying, even though I have everything here , like a nice place , my dog , decent friends. I think my depression comes from no attention , I feel every lonely at times. I talk to my mom everyday but its very dull like , do good in school ok , or u did mad in exams dad is gonna come to teach u. My dad will come for a fe days to help for my exams but I hate it , i dont know why , he just sits in my place all day , and just talks the notes out load to me , its horrible then I respond to him in a mean way like "ookkkk " or i just dont say anything and he tries to act all normal like , i have come all the way here to help you and you are behaving like this. I feel bad that I talk to him this way but I still do it. I am very confused. with all this my religious point of life has gone down the drain. I hardly pray now, I hardly believe in god now because I feel I am have never done anything wrong why is god treating me life this.